i learned quite alot of things nowadays by ppl's action...good n bad...after all i still feel like an idiot among my friends...mayb jus bcoz i m stupid...doesnt wan them to get upset or wat...or i m also selfish...ppl sometimes purposely make themselves sad n depress n dont even try to cheer themselves up n actually spread the mood purposely...they jus cant relax can they? depress so wat? if u r depress everybody else is too...nvm...this doesnt really matter...too many things i found out much earlier than others...the things i tot for few months...until now then they realise it...i dun wanna say anything...when toking jus makes me feel stupid...i tried to b mself...i tried to tok...they asked me to...yet...i dont think it really work out for everyone...mayb bcoz its myself who forced myself to make everyone ard me relax...n i expect them to b the way i m...i had totally forgot abt it...i m being selfish...like i always m...forcing myself had bcome a habit...mayb tt's good?...hope it's...rather than being someone i dont like to b...i feel much better this way...izzit?...yes or no...it doesnt matter now...others cant make me see who i m...others will onli do actions for us to see...seeing cant do much help without thinking...until now i onli noe sm ppl i can really feel very comfortable with...bcoz they dont care...although they giv weird comments...they r always very relax n laughing away...no matter funny or not...mayb coz i saw too many ppl who cant relax in sch...they jus giv stupid faces...n stupid?? nvm...pardon tt...everybody's stupid including me...haiz lets relax for now...exams over...lots of fun w8ing...lets not care abt sch for a while...hav all the fun while we can...live is very short...seeing ppl born n w8ing to die...its a pain...n ppl cry when their loved ones died...y muz humans b expressive making everyone feel sad when we saw them cry...y cant they stop crying n think abt wat r they supposed to do...when they cry they make everyone feel sad izzit it stupid? or selfish? bcoz of their sadness they coz everyone to b sad like them...haiz...typing them out helps relieve my pain?...nah...i dont care pain or not...if they dont learn we cant do anything...make them regret when their old...make them cry til their tears r dry...i m so evil!! MUAHAHAHA!!!!