haiz...i noe i had nvr been myself for yrs...i hav been an idiot stupid fool trying to b sm1...but i m not sm1 but a human...i shldnt hav believed myself...haiz...nvr understand...i feel so worn out...holiday liao...but...not happy...thinking of cheering myself up...its a stupid act...i m too lonely? tt i imagine n cre8 another me for awhile...a short term happiness...i complained in myself too much...there onli 1 me in me...my poor uncle...my poor cousin...almost 1 month old liao...grandma dunno y not happy...then...nvm...i hav nvr been really happy hav i?...feel like del this blog...lol...