ytd went back early...went kfc again...extra lessons after sch til 1.30...eat finish dont noe go where so went home...morning bro accidentially brought mp3 then tell me help him keep...then brought it to sch...the earphone so long...wan hear 1 but lazy...so nth to do...cut my hair...the person cut til very weird...like nvr cut...zzz...my hair sux...er xin...today leh...sianz...later going bbq or dont noe wat...sm1 getting married...nice...but dont feel like going...still need take ride from other ppl...sian...at home dont noe wat can i do...wan play also dunno play wat...wan watch anime yet dont wan...lunch lazy go buy...no one at home...so dont feel like buying...so eat maggie...not feeling very gd...think...feeling useless n hopeless...lost?...everyday see ppl changing...abit by abit...dont noe y...can see 1...change abit onli ma...not much diff...but the feeling is always diff...learning to let things go n come at will...cannot think too much...live 1 day happy 1 day is the best...but nt happy how?...not sure...jus think on the bright side?...mayb...this yr muz do well...dont wan b scolded...ear tired...everyday seems to b w8ing for smth to happen...but nth seems to happen...w8 n w8 til very tired...coz w8ing make me feel hopeless...when will time come?...haiz...many feel tt toking to myself is weird...unsual...but i m always like this...toking to myself instead of others...mayb this is prob to others...but no choice i cant control...coz toking to my self make me understand better...or feel better...mayb others will b quite scared of me...then nvm...nth much...hope tmr will b better...keep telling others to relax...but i seems to b the 1 unable to...keep thinking n thinking...at most calm for awhile...haiz...nvm!! relax!...dont stress...everything is going to b fine...