sianz today same same onli abit diff...saw zx receive so many gifts...lol...after sch went eat kfc wif kc...then went back sch alone...then find darrick wan go eat at mama shop...then saw zx n...okok then went back sch do nth...w8 til more ppl went kfc again...zzz then went there do nth after they eaten went to bus stop wif ck...not kc is ck ck ok? dont confuse...got home bath use com come blog...nth to do...haiz...dont noe y keep telling myself to b brave n stop being afraid...afraid of? dont noe...when will this fear go away...haha...today also got 1 person ask me y my nick like very sad...n i ans dunno...then still wan noe how put so sad...actually the ans is : sad is feeling, tt's all...after all is all feelings...couldnt help it...haiz...stomachache every morning...dont noe wat happened last time not like this 1 leh...dunno is not eat enuff in the morning r wat...this fri very sianz...cannot stay back...need go checkup...anyway stay back also nth to do...wonder when will my body break down...like when very young tt time very enegetic but now...so fast all used up?...last time jump jump jump fall down can immediately stand up n cry n cry...then started jumping again the other day...now leh...fall down still can stand wun cry liao...but dun realli dare to do the same things again...n getting very weak...once rest dun seems to wan to get up again...but i dont feel tt i m stress or anything...but seems so tired of life...but still oneself shld live for him or her self...but when there is happiness there will always sadness...y izzit always like this...n when u wan something...u dont seems to get it...the more u wan the harder it gets...n things u dont wan keep coming...life could b very comfortable couldnt it?...or shldnt it b?...mayb is the stupidity of humans which make their lifes like this...i hate it!!!...haiz...nvm...i getting used to such life...jus hope dont break down so soon...