haiz...ytd still fever so didnt go sch...see dr he say my sore throat very bad...today went sch still ok...didnt eat lunch in sch so went back home cook porridge...wan slp cannot slp...can onli lie on the bed rest...so got up play...think no more fever liao...whew...but also no use...still got sore throat...actually wan stay in sch but think body cannot take it liao so went home...ytd still same to still same...jus tt i missed tests...haiz...today chem test...still ok la can do...cannot do then better...dont noe y...very sianzz...tmr got ncc!! no worries! got 3 day mc...but all on written on 1...dont noe how to tell teacher...coz ms chiang took all...nvm...cough n cough til no strength liao...no strength to tok...but really no choice...dont wan totally no reply when sm1 tok to me...smtimes getting sick is good...at least sm1 will care...but when ur well nobody cares...smtimes really hope everyone could hate me...so i dont need to b afraid to hurt anyone...dont need to control wat i say...really tired sia...it is always good to cared for...jus once is a lot for me...mayb i m too stupid...how could a little b enuff?...i dont wanna regret when i lose it...but still i feel no one is really worth trusting everything on after all we all always make mistakes...wats urs is urs no urs mayb it will b urs 1 day...or nvr 4eva...so wat if u r sad...so wat if u r suffering...tt's bcoz u think so...if u dont think tt way everything shld b fine...ppl also tends to think tt wheneva a person did something wrong he will b the bad guy 4eva...but even if many many good things were done...all it takes is jus 1 mistake...mayb is the selfishness of ppl...all they wanted is good things...after all no1 wans smth bad...but of coz there will also b smth bad abt a good thing...and smth good abt a bad thing...haiz...hate this...i m jus 14/15...n i m here toking big...hate making myself irritating...hate being treated like a fool...ones life shldnot or cannot b control by ppl...haiz...mayb i had to b the bad guy after all...pointing out wat ppl shld or shld not do...trying to change ppl...which seems totally useless...