feeling upset...everytime after u all tok abt tt...i got bck home i seems to b quite affected...wanna noe everything...seems impossible...blog now coz later i will not b at home...missing her...wonder...haizz...feel so upset...tired...muz u all always...wanna cry out...but i wun allow myself to...i m stupid i m useless...i m a person with bad char...coz i cant b myself infront of ur...y?...i always wanted to noe...everytime i wanted to help...i created more probs...when someone is in trouble i was unable to help...i was lost here...confused...cant get out of this place...which i wanted to...muz everything b in this way...?how i wish this had nvr happened...how i wish time could b turned back...back to the time when there is no worries...no stress...no problems...i was like being torn apart...no more strength to continue...y muz i b here in the first place...i hate it...y muz everthing have feelings...y?....there seems to have no real answers in this world...everything seems to endless...mayb...accepting n facing the things now is the onli solution...but i dont seems to b able to...jus bcoz of such a small matter can coz me feel like this...y?....haiz...wanted this to end...